#TittersToTexas Day One

Yesterday was my first day of my 22 hour trek to Texas to see my boyfriend. At around Williamsburg I started to feel funny. So I decided to pull into a Casey's which consisted of me taking an exit off the interstate, turning right, turning left and finally turning right again into the Casey's. Well, at the light waiting to turn left I started coughing and really feeling like I need to puke. The light turned green. I went and then my vision got blurry. Next thing I know there was a guy screaming at me asking me for my phone to call my parents. I was in a snowbank with puke all over me. I don't remember any of this. A cop came and asked me what had happened and I told him exactly what I remembered. He asked if I had been drinking, of course. Then EMS was at my door. Getting my blood pressure, my pulse, listening to my lungs and all that. Thankfully they didn't make me go to the hospital AND I DIDNT GET A TICKET. Apparently the guy that was screaming for my phone had watched me drive into the snowbank at 2mph so my car wasn't hurt. After everyone left I pulled into Casey's and cleaned myself up and called my dad back. I got a hotel in Williamsburg and the sweet front desk lady let me put my barf clothes in the washing machine! After I got settled in my room I really got to thinking. If I had been going any faster or if the snowbank weren't there I would have smashed into a lightpole. Or what if I was still on the interstate.

For Christmas my grandma gave me a guardian angel to put in my car. As much as I don't want to believe it had something to do with the turn of events, I do. 

I woke up this morning feeling fine and after this yummy bowl of fruit loops I'll begin my trek once again. This time hopefully making it out of Iowa. 

The Urge to Write

Since starting my blog, I have realized that I like to write. I figure this is true because, if there is one thing you know about me, it's that I love to talk. I have an incredible ability to go on and on for hours about nothing. I like to write because I feel like once I get going I can paint a pretty vivid picture in your head with the words on a screen and I actually making a conscious effort of  thinking before I speak but being trapped in the 'digital age' has hindered that. Relying on Twitter and Facebook to update you with 'relevant information' is extremely suffocating. I constantly found myself aimlessly scrolling through my Twitter feed, checking Facebook, and repeating this action for an extended period of time. In a way my Twitter was my word-vomit journal, I would tweet about everything and anything; silly thoughts, life's biggest questions, things that would randomly pop into my head and so on.

I am dependent of social media and my iPhone. I have realized this and have taken action to become less connected. I have deactivated both my Twitter and my Facebook, it's definitely not permanent but it is going to be for a while. I like having a place to document my COMPLETE thoughts and not be limited to 140 characters. I have wanted to deactivate my Twitter for a while now but because it is a big part of my life I didn't know how I would take to not having somewhere for my thoughts to go. Around the same time I started thinking about deactivating my Twitter, my friend Emily created a blog and does a spectacular job blogging, you can check it out HERE! After I saw that, i was inspired to blog. How could you not be?!

My deal with Facebook isn't that I was constantly updating my status, it's that I used it as a weapon. A weapon that I used to judge and to make a target for whatever I felt necessary. I didn't do this very often but when I did and realized it I felt horrible. The way the world is these days there is no room for hatred and anger. I don't want to fuel the fire, I want to extinguish it.

Until I feel that I can be a respectful part of society without social media, I will be disconnected and you can continue to find me here.

Cheers